Today is the day, there is no turning back. In six hours I'm gonna be on the plane on my way over the atlantic. Don't know what to think or feel, but I don't have the buzzing in my stomach just yet. Pretty sad though, I wanna feel excited but I guess it's gonna come with time.
Still lying in bed at my parents place, my mum is gonna drive me to the airport. I guess they are quite nervous my parents, but they've seen how I've been so now they will know I am at least doing something to make a change, which in one way or another is good.
I wonder what it will be like? I mean you have heard so much about oceans drive, the outdoor gyms the rolleskating people and the colors of the houses. Will it be like stepping into the eighties and watching a movie with steven seagal in it? Or will the more high fashioned life-style be the thing that dominates nowadays? I don't know but I guess I will find out, sooner rather than later.
Once again I'm wearing my necklace "muito axe", which is the best and most beautifull present anyone ever gave me. I love it! It inspires me and gives me strength, but still being something of the focus of my pain. Strange thing.... love and pain, intertwined and yet so far apart....
wish you all the best of days, don't know when I will be able to write again but hopefolly soon enough.
"Nothing is ever worth anything, without anyone to share it with" Johannes
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